u/Gullible_Alfalfa9792

Im 52 yrs old; im not that terrible to look at & have even been reminded every day that I have a great personality. I was married for 31 years and he died 10-30-25. I had a date this last Saturday and it was a wealthy businessman who is 3 yrs younger, very attractive & fun! I truly felt connected the more he made me laugh. But then bottled it all up when I realized that I was cheating on my husbands memory. I came straight home and have cried at least 5 times.. For what I've lost; for what I've found.. For feeling so dastardly and cruel. I have since explained this to my date; he says that he understands it may take time for me to open up to him romantically & how patient he is. He also added that he thinks im worth wait. How do I either move on or just accept being alone? Idk what to do; my loneliness wont let me decide.