I'm facing false accusations and I gotta just write the story somewhere
Hi reddit,
I'm losing my god damn mind. I am dealing with an intense situation of false accusation. to be perfectly frank I have not been a good guy but I'm not a monster. The situation begins a WHILE back and it is all quite convoluted. I dated a girl (lets call her One) for two years. At the end of our relationship I cheated on her with a girl (lets call her Four) and then dated Four for about 2 weeks before breaking up. I got back with One and they made an arrangement where I was allowed to sleep with other people (will never work in a real relationship). I then started sleeping with a new girl (lets call her Two) and after a while broke up with One before giving her a ring.
While "single" Four kept breaking into my room in university halls and.... doing things to me. Or guilt tripping me, the basis is I did not want to do it but have a real hard time saying no especially when the opposing force doesn't take the first 10 no's. My friend group found out.... and did not care. I then started dating Two, which was great because she scared off Four(BTW I don't know where to introduce her but there was a girl (Lets call her Three) but she is best friends with Four). So I started dating Two and things seemed to be good, months later I had to collect some things from One. Which I gave her to hold on to before I left, which she surprisingly didn't destroy because we were meant to be "friends". One then started crying and such, she then started doing stuff to me in which we ended up having like pity ___. I then felt awful as I truly didn't intend to do that with her. I didn't tell Two as I thought One was out of my life so I just moved on. How wrong I could be because then One told me they were coming to the same university as me. Meanwhile Four had SA'd Three and my entire friend group immediately kicked Four out of the friend group.
This left me depressed as I realised how little my "friends" think of me. Two did not help and became Three's best friend. When One arrived at university I had a conversation with them explaining how I am happy with Two (not entirely true but I wasn't gonna explain that to One).I started becoming close with Three, our relationship was completely platonic, we just watched horror things on youtube and it was great. A few weeks later there was a society event and where I attended with Two. One and Three were also there. Near the end of the night One had become quite drunk and crying, and remembering her ex (before me) who SA'd her. I was trying to help her because I felt guilty of basically abandoning her and destroying her trust. Two was defo conflicted on what to do and I felt like I was having to look after her aswell so I sent her away and walked One back to her accommodation. As SOOON as we left One kept trying to kiss me and such which I kept resisting. Once I finally got her in her room she locked the door and blocked it. I tried to leave but was unable and we ended up doing stuff together. I immediately left and was completely ashamed. Me and Two had arguments about it and things were left off, and I avoided One at all costs.
One night while hanging out with Three we started flirting and then kissing. The next day (or day after) I broke up with Two and started dating Three. At another society event Two found out about me and One's actions, but not the complete truth. One and Two also became best friends. Only after a week Two then came back and we started doing things. Another week passed and Three found out and broke up with me. A few weeks passed and I had stopped seeing any of these people romantically but we were still in the same friend group. Me, One and Two were on good terms, Three and myself weren't in contact but they were still close with the others. At a Party I kissed a new girl (Lets call her LOML) and we after a while started seeing each other but not dating. One night me and Two got high together and ended up sleeping together. I told LOML I wanted to either date or stop. Two then get drunk and told LOML. LOML was extremely mad and we stopped for a while. Three weeks later LOML and myself started dating and she told me not to F it up. While our relationship was good-ish EVERYBODY AND THEIR MOTHER was telling me she was cheating on me. I would meet up with Two in secret and talk to her because even though we were broken up she was one of the people closest to me. I know she wanted to sleep with me but I was good at that point in refusing/resisting/avoiding.
After a while me and LOML broke up and it felt worse than any other break up for some reason. We stayed in contact but after a month had a huge argument and went no contact. I then started sleeping with someone new (Five) as a fwb. Then stopped BECAUSE THEY WOULDN'T LEAVE MY HOUSE. Then someone new (SIX) as another fwb. THEN me, Two and Five started having a lil throuple fwb and I told Six so we stopped. It was pretty chill for a month or two but then I found out that the reason that everybody was saying that LOML was cheating on me when we were in a relationship was because TWO HAD SPREAD HUNDREDS OF RUMOURS AND LIES TO PEOPLE ABOUT LOML. So I stopped being with Two and Five. Then me and LOML started talking again, then started being a weird situationship for a month. Two then told LOML about the throuple thing we had, which sucked THEN LIED ON TOP SAYING WE WERE SCREWING THE ENTIRE TIME AND NEVER STOPPED SINCE ME AND TWO BROKE UP. Which is buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuulllllll. Big arguements, One also got involved for some reason. I tried to end myself because I'm an idiot. after a while me and LOML got back together and I cut off every number since that night. 8 months pass by. of nothing and I'm minding my own business, having literally the best relationship of my life and being happier I had ever been in my entire life (I had a very troubled childhood).
I wake up to a banging on my door. Seven cops at the door. "you are under arrest for three counts of R, Burglary, domestic violence, and death threats." One, Two and Three said I did EVIL things to them and broke into One's house and stole a bunch of stuff, including the ring. The death threat may be true because apparently I texted One (for some reason) on the awful night" I'm gonna k*** you, your family and then myself" which is completely in the wrong but I was very upset and thought I wasn't going to wake up the next day. These accusations are all lies. I know I'm going to come out innocent but this is just such a rough moment in my life and I think if I do in the 1% chance they call me guilty I'm genuinely ending it. LOML knows about the accusations and is the best person I have ever met, shes got an optimistic mindset. I love her more than anything I have experienced but I'm already struggling mentally. My family also know and they're being great cus they know what kind of person I am. Not the best but not a monster. My life was finally was going well. I have had a million troubles. This is the one is kind of the decider for the rest of my life.
Thanks for reading.
Edit: my bad for the wall of text before