u/Gullible_Cost_5809

I graduated 5 months ago (december) and I have recently been getting interviews after months of silence. I havent touched up on my accounting knowledge since january and my brain made me believe I knew everything. I’ve had a couple of interviews now and whenever they ask an accounting question I answer and then its followed by a another question and then the flow of things makes me believe I’m right and whatever wrong answers I make don’t become doubt anymore, they become a part of my knowledge that I also use to answer questions in other interviews. Today, I had an interview and the interviewer asked me what is in a financial statement and my dumb*** started describing an income statement (Everytime I remember I WANT TO SCREAM) . And then a couple more questions that made me want to bang my head in the wall. I KNOW THESE THINGS I SWEAR I JUST NEEDED TO REVIEW THEM. I’ve worked with it in my internship 🫩 My brain feels like a pile of unorganized papers, nothing they say is new or alien I just need reorganize everything I learned. Thinking back on my interviews makes me WANT TO CHOKE MYSELF. I WISH I JUST GLANCED AT MY NOTES AT LEAST. God help my short term memory ADHD brain not even 5 months past since Ive reviewed everything and before that studied for 4 years and now everything is out of order.

I started varenicline 13 days ago and I managed to quit vaping 3 days ago. Longest record I’ve ever had these 2 years I’ve tried quitting. I was a heavy smoker, I literally couldn’t hold on for an hour and not smoke. It was taking over my life, Everything I do has to be convenient to vaping, and since I vape in secret (I’m 24) I sometimes limit my social life because of it and I hated it so much. I feel so much weaker than before, I get so tired easily when I exercise, I feel like I’m missing out on so much because of this damn addiction that took over my life.

I have no self discipline, so it felt impossible to cut down on vaping. I tried doing that, but I keep going back to vaping 24/7. I finally went to see a doctor and to get varenicline prescription. I’ve heard about all the horror stories about it, but I wanted to give it a shot anyway.

Luckily I didn’t really have a hard time on it other than irritability and vivd dreams but that outweighs me continuing to vape by a million tons. At day 13 of varenicline, I can’t believe thinking of vaping makes me sick 🫠 The me a week ago wouldn’t believe it. I’m so glad I committed.