Need advice for breakup while still in contact
Well to start off for some context me and girlfriend had been together since Christmas Day of 2022. We broke up march 27th of this year and were together for well over 3 years. About 5 months ago I developed a porn addiction and I had created a Snapchat account where I used it to goon. She had found my account on my old phone and yes it’s technically cheating and so then she left me over it. There are a few other things that she had wanted me to change about myself that I didn’t. I personally do not know why I didn’t other than I was just comfortable and blind. I started therapy to help me and my addiction and I’ve been doing very well without it now.
This is where I need some advice, my ex then has stayed in contact with me this whole time. She keeps saying she doesn’t know what she wants and that she isn’t looking for a relationship at this point. She still checks on me every once in a while and asks who I’m seeing or what I’m doing. I did tell her that since we are broken up that it shouldn’t matter. Since I’m not asking her what she’s doing or seeing. We talked about that part too and she told me that she didn’t want me asking her or getting jealous. Yet that’s what she does to me. I do love her a lot and I did cheat on her. She still takes her problems to me and I try to help her when or however I can. But I’m scared I’m being used even though she said it’s not her intention.
I don’t know what to do or how I should keep going about this?, I tried to get her back by begging like a fool but she did agree to start seeing each other again as friends “for now” whatever she meant by that. And she knows my intentions and goals are to rekindle and restart our relationship. She has stopped being mean to me and has been a little more warm lately. I do also want to mention that, I usually do not reach out to her since she usually talks to me whenever she needs something or is asking what I’m doing. Is this hope? Is there some hope here guys?
We had a period of 2 days no contract that she broke asking me about her car if it’s getting towed still. I agreed to help her the other week since I have AAA and I realize I shouldn’t have. Seems like she is only talking to me now about her car.