Dad is a selfish person and toxic
It’s the type of person to do fucked up shit and make up for it with whatever need the victim is needing he will exploit and abuse people to come down to his level so he can have his way of life. He is a pig. Never takes care of anything of his Legit not a single ounce of cleanliness or organization in my waking life.
I gotta get away from this guy he’s insufferable and a miserable human being only cares about 3 things. His pack of menthol cigarettes (20$) a pack , His meth (addicted to cheap thrills) and His fake friends that bring 0 value into his life and Only drain him for his resources and look at his image as some sort of provider .
I am constantly let down by trying to stick up for this asshole for years since I was kid just trying to have my dads back while all my family members shit talk him when he’s no where near. I use to resent my family members for this as a kid .
The issues where I’m being gaslit I’ll have all my laundry done fresh Boxers,Socks Fresh new t shirts Made very clear to not wear my new clothes. To him he doesn’t care there just clothes he’s use to hand me downs cause he’s a boomer. He doesn’t understand todays struggles when he was a Kid he was literally taught a trade to instantly be in a career given a liveable wage out of Hs.
My dad’s a plumber wearing my new clothes that will forever be dirty from one wear of hard work. It’s a thing where he’s lazy to do his own due diligence of chores he thinks others are going to pick up after him because he provides for their needs. I certainly don’t deal with this shit anymore I use to do it at our last house. I noticed how he would cook all my food, that I could stretched for 1-2 weeks worth of meal prep, he would cook for his friends to maintain this image of a good provider friend. He makes a mess to everything he touches.
He shaves his face he leaves His facial hair and aftershave dried in the sink, when he cooks pasta or steak there will be steak blood all over the counter or tomato pasta all over the counter when he places the lid on the counter. Doesn’t see any problem making the mess but sees an issue when it’s not cleaned.
Gonna have to get away from this pull myself up from the bootstraps I pray they let me go into the military. I hate my current living situation I was homeless recently last year around my 25th birthday and I’m not okay. I wanna be able to live on my own, be self reliant and not be dependent on this type of parasite I’m around. all I do is give to get less. Im treated worse for striving for better. Regardless of what My dad says he can’t fix himself so why am I expecting things to change. I’m already mentally cut from my family dynamic I don’t care what type of trauma I might endure if I sign up because I want freedom away from this narcissistic abuse. It so much worse than any words can be used to describe the active abuse.
final conclusion to wrap this up is he only cares about himself. How do I know this because he doesn’t do any of the steps it takes to provide for comfortability in his own life. He has no convenience. If I wasn’t here he’d have to step up and start doing his due diligence. Crazy part is he would do just that but since I’m here he thinks because he cooks meals for his friends. not me….idec anymore im so apathetic and numb when family is around. He doesn’t notice because he only knows how to live his own life on his own terms dragging everyone around him down aswell. It’s only about convenience for this type of person. I see the perspective of me describing all these things to this depth would make others seem like I’m the problem to the issue and what I’m describing is my own faults. I see it it’s not the case. I know this abuse well and I do everything to not feel like the victim. When I am one.
his Bed he sleeps on is mine. His tv in his room is mine. Most of his old clothes is mine. Hes a user