Had a dream I relapsed.
I woke up from my dream, and remember recalling myself being so ashamed and disappointed in myself while dreaming, but waking up with so much relief. I think while i've been clean, my sub-conscious is slowing transforming as well. I still get urges, but my resilience has been stronger than ever.
I understand my triggers, I'm not longer on any social media. If something comes up randomly on say Youtube shorts that can trigger me, I immediately use the "not interested in this post" button.
I'm not too long into my journey, but I can tell you all who are fighting this eternal war, it's a war worth fighting for. I'm way more confident, I have way more energy, and more importantly, I'm genuinely happier.
Don't practice who you don't want to become. Stay strong warriors,