Taking HRT
(NSFW cause idk if this would be or not)
Hey so I’m currently 19 MTF and I’m kinda wanting to start hormones, but there’s multiple factors to it, like the fact that i still wanna have bio kids with my gf someday and i read that taking hormones or hormone blockers will slow down or completely stop sperm production (pretty sure it just meant the fertile part of sperm) but also the fact that I’m really close to my mom, we’ve always had an amazing relationship and she supports me but is just taking time to adjust and get used to it, she had a friend who was a transgirl and well basically the short version is that she was depressed and not mentally well and the hormones weren’t helping with that and were making her suicidal but she looked and acted like she was okay (kinda like how i do) but then when she went to check herself into a mental hospital because she was scared she was gonna kill herself they just told her off and denyed her (this was like in the 90s i think) and she ended up jumping off a building and killing herself which was and still is obviously traumatic and really effects her feelings towards me starting HRT but she’s not totally against it, she just wants me to wait until my brain is fully developed so the same thing doesn’t happen to me, but my problem is that i don’t wanna develop anymore masculine features that my body already doesn’t have and i think HRT would fix that and stop it.. i told my mom i would wait and that eased her mind but i really don’t want it to take even longer then it already would to change my body,
any chance anybody could offer some knowledge or advice that would be lovely and thank you in advance :)