I ended it
Second time in 4 months almost to the date that he turns extreme avoidant and completely silent. Zero response. Going on day 6 today. He’s not in jail, hospital, or otherwise indisposed, I’m 100% sure of this.
I ended it this morning in a voice message. I did it for myself, because I know He’s not going to hear what I said, he admitted he didn’t hear or see anything i sent him the first round, and honestly, i never got over that… I sent my voice note and blocked him.
I wish I could understand what goes on in his mind. Only the week prior to this he was saying he loved me, missed me, asked to be patient with him, that he knows he’s hard to love, and that he wasn’t going anywhere and he was in this for the long run. I reassured him up and down he’s not hard to love, because it was so easy to fall in love with him and he’s amazing.
I’m not a perfect angel, but it’s clear now we are not compatible. I’m so sad. He’s so perfect otherwise.
I’ve been treated like this before. Weeks long disappearances but in that case the guy had a whole other life and was much more devious. Different story, but I told myself I would never allow this to happen again and I needed to trust myself. I’m trying to exercise that self trust now :(