I got forced into s3x. Now I’m starting to think terribly
im 15F and just made this account just to ask for help and advice about my situation & posting to a lot of whatever, just looking for help.Tuesday(oct,7) while hanging with someone. Somebody close with that someone who was 24(m) forced himself onto me and a lot of things in my life has changed. Ive had and have to talk to police. Got sent to the ER for kits and dna checks, missed school etc. and I’m still processing all the feelings from that day. But the issue is that regret it, and it has affected my mental health so much I think my brain..or me is starting to convince myself that I wanted it. Which i know isn’t true. But I’ve been alone so much recently I don’t know who to tell. My mom has been angry with me after what happened and abt me leaving the house without her permission; it’s kinda like she’s not paying any attention to what actually happened to me. Now I’m starting to believe he didn’t do anything wrong, that I eventually let myself to this point now this whole case should be closed and done with and he doesn’t deserve prison time. Im not sure where to go for this since my family can’t afford therapy and idk any other place to go to. Im starting to think abt this more and I think its working. What is this? is it a trauma respons? Or something else. If anyone knows pls text back and try to give me recommendations on how to get rid of all of this bc I don’t like where this is leading to.