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I am in the BIGGEST reading slump so please help😭

I want to be giggling and kicking my feet over the chemistry. I’m talking banter/snark/flirting but NO insta-love/lust. I want there to be so much tension that I throw my kindle and fist pump when they first kiss.

Gimme EXPLICIT AND PLENTIFUL spice that doesn’t give 1 pump chump. Extra points for straight or inexperienced MC.

I need something that is gonna make me laugh out loud, but not cringey romcom style.

Hard no’s:

-Infantilising where the MC needs a d in his mouth or ass like a pacifier to calm down
-Insta love/lust
-Dead ex
-MMM+
-Non-con/dub-con
-Third-person POV

I’m a 27(F) and haven’t officially been diagnosed with endometriosis as I’m waiting for my gyno appointment to confirm. However, my ultrasound showed a large cyst on each ovary; one measuring at 6.5cm and the other at 6.8cm. After doing some research, I see that they are above average size and therefore carry more risks.

My fiancé and I were wanting to start a family soon, and this has really thrown me. I wanted to hear from anyone who is in a similar situation and know what to expect.

My main questions are:

-How did this affect your fertility?
-Did you have to have surgery?
-If I can get pregnant, are there risks to baby and me?

I’d appreciate any advice. I’m so new to this and it could be months until my gyno appointment, but I can’t deal with the constant anxiety of being in the dark:(

EDIT: I have regular periods I’m not sure if that’s important information.

I previously posted about how stupid my GP made me feel for asking for further investigation into my symptoms. She gaslit the hell out of me just because I have normal periods. She blamed my dyspareunia (pain during intercourse) on constipation and left out key information which indicated a ruptured cyst a few years ago from my notes.

I practically had to beg for an ultrasound. And what do you know? A chocolate cyst on each ovary measuring at 6.5cm and 6.8cm. Scar tissue has caused my ovaries to stick together (kissing ovaries).

Women should not feel relief when being diagnosed with life altering conditions. I am so unbelievably angry. My first time acknowledging something was wrong was 6 years ago, where I sat in A&E in excruciating/bring you to the floor pain not knowing I had a ruptured cyst. They sent me home once determining it wasn’t appendicitis. Complete agony to be sent home with no explanation.

I am mad because this is MY future and no one listened. I want to build a family and I’m terrified that I won’t be able to do that. I had an abortion 4 years ago not knowing that it could’ve been my only chance. I feel guilt, anger, and so much sadness.

Advocate for yourself. You know your body more than anyone.

I’m very new to this and I hope I don’t offend anyone. I know this condition can be debilitating, and I don’t want to come across as insensitive by ‘self diagnosing’. I’d just love some honest opinions from real people who have experience with Endo, because I felt like my GP was more clueless than me.

I’ve struggled with sex for years due to finding it painful. It’s affected my relationships and self confidence. I now have a fiancé who is beyond supportive and does everything to make it comfortable rather than get annoyed.

He gave me the confidence to get it checked out instead of feeling too embarrassed to say anything. I decided to do some research beforehand because I wanted to go in prepared to advocate for myself.

When I saw that this symptom can be caused by Endo, I didn’t really think much of it because I have regular periods and while I do experience pain, it’s not excruciating. But the more I looked into it the more things just kept clicking into place.

Throughout my 20s I’ve experienced 3 episodes of sudden excruciating pain in my lower left abdomen. The pain absolutely floored me, I’d never felt anything like it. I thought it was appendicitis and my friend called 111 for me because I was screaming and unable to stand. I was told to go to A&E where they determined it wasn’t appendicitis via blood test and sent me away and told me to book a GP appointment, where they just gave me antibiotics for an infection they didn’t check for. The other 2 times it happened I just toughed it out. I now believe these could’ve been cysts rupturing.

With all of this in mind, I compiled a list of my symptoms to take to my recent GP appointment:

-deep pain during intercourse
-period and ovulation pain in lower left abdomen
-3 episodes of sudden excruciating pain in lower left abdomen
-bloating and constipation that worsens during my period
-consistent need to pee and feeling like my bladder is never empty
-unable to wear tampons without discomfort
-night sweats

Not only did my GP not add the 3 episodes of pain to my notes, but she said “eh that was in the past what about now”. She tried to pin all of this on CONSTIPATION. I swear to god she said I need to add more fibre to my diet and was ready to send me on my way. I practically demanded an ultrasound, which she begrudgingly booked, but as soon as I left the appointment I just broke down in tears.

I’m not saying I’m certain that it is Endo but I KNOW that something isn’t right. I’m still waiting for my ultrasound, but I’d love some advice on how to navigate this.

So I’m currently 27. I was diagnosed with ADHD in my early 20s, hEDS around 1 year ago, which was shortly followed by a POTS diagnosis.

Don’t get me wrong, getting diagnosed was helpful in terms of understanding myself, however, I feel like the psychological damage has been done.

Does anyone else experience feeling imposter syndrome? Like you’re being dramatic and you’re just a hypochondriac?

Like I’m aware that I’m different, but because I spent the majority of my life with no explanation as to why, it’s hard to separate myself from the girl that struggled in school, felt generally unwell constantly without knowing why and struggled with exercise.

To this day I see myself as unintelligent, lazy, and a hypochondriac because I had no other explanation growing up. I feel like I have none of these diagnoses and I’m just being dramatic.

Diagnoses that are invisible feel so lonely sometimes, and regardless of now having my explanations, I wish someone had just helped that little girl who blamed herself.