Time-less time management
What is REAL boredom...?
To me it's more than anhedonia it's the loss of capacity to occupy time to even a rudimentary level.
So I'll try give as much context as I can,
29 From UK
Physically capable, not mentally, been self isolated for 9+months going through support mostly waiting so not after that kind of advice
Adopted so family communication and ties aren't like expected in most capacities even birth
Don't really have anyone else in my life really not that I'm strictly anti social I'm just not social fluent much, most interaction I see is occasionally going to the store.
Actively smoking W (medical/rec), don't need a lecture, ik it's not the best for me,It's not my time to stably stop plus I'm grown... And just on that yes I know I'm a grown ahh man but I feel a lot of people struggle with this so respectfully sym and to be honest it's the main push I have to help me do things to occupy my time these days sue me!
I have so many skills admittedly mostly acquired for or to impress women throughout this lifetime. Not currently in a relationship for some months although always relationship orientated. Any way acquiring both technical, creative and a myriad of other things (I.T, music, most media, physical skills...) I sing, especially when emotional to calm down.
Become extremely proficient at systems engineering
I'd describe myself as a very analytical and self aware street minded person so no offence I'm not looking for like nerd answers like read books and wordsearches.
Currently off work and all that with a limited budget.
So whilst I'm struggling with even basic functioning, all day I find myself unable to self occupy my "down time" which is practically all the time 24/7 repetitive loop is listening to music, watching videos, movies/shows, gaming.
I don't doom scroll and I'm not a gooner like some
Equally wasting the time I have and confined to my desk mostly for no reason other than mental fog I'm fit and healthy mostly but the things I spend my time doing feel fruitless.
Also my routine has devolved into waking up at 4-5am everyday for no reason and I understand a lot of people that works but when you don't want to be conscious most of the time and you're not a sleeper like that and your day is extended for an extra 1/4 and any waking second that isn't filled with noise or more importantly something I can feel I'm actively/productively doing whilst actually not doing anything or being prepared to even move or function basics, the options seem thin...
I seem to get frustrated at a fundamental level not towards anything in particular.
Obviously try to enjoy little things
And everything is by a instance or circumstancial basis.
In structureless life how is time occupied...?