my 11th anniversary is coming soon, we were like a love story, overseas multicultural marriage, same religion, happy in general and have a 4 yo daughter and a small house, old working car. Finances are ok but have manageable debt (mortgage + LOC only)
I am not 100% satisfied with our intimate life and been seeking it elsewhere now I met this girl who is amazing and I want her to be my side girl for my "me time" ... oh I dont have any hobbies or much friends, and I dont do sports. I just enjoy coffee, relaxing, movies and some xbox (very little) so I consider the affair as my "me time" outside all family and work responsibilities.
An affair outside marriage is a huge sin in my religion and also I find it to be unethical but it makes me happy and motivated to keep going. Its like my re-charge to continue through life and responsibilities. Shall I continue like this even it makes me guilty and feel sinful ?