u/Haleythepiercer

Hi!

I’ve been practicing Kendama a lot over the last week or so and was making some great progress, but now it’s like I can’t be consistently “good” at the same things I was killing all week? Like simply going from big cup, base cup, little cup? I was doing that all day long with no drops and now I’m lucky if I make 4 cups before screwing up. Obviously you aren’t gonna be perfect right away but I feel like I’m regressing even though I put hours into it daily?

Location: Missouri

Facing a first offense dwi with no accident or injury. Court was to be 2 days ago however unfortunately my lawyer had a family emergency and understandably continued the case. I was on casenet that evening checking if the new court date had been set and noticed a docket entry for a court order to get fingerprinting etc. I screenshotted and sent to my attorney immediately. It has been two days with no response and I absolutely understand because family certainly comes first, however I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to ignore a court order, but everyone is telling me to wait for instruction from my attorney. Feeling conflicted and worried about breaking any rules.

Location: Missouri

Hello there! I am facing a first offense dwi charge. Was due to have court 2 days ago to accept plea and had everything situated, but unfortunately my attorney had a family emergency so he requested a continuance. Totally understandable! Well, I checked casenet that evening and noticed a court order from the judge for fingerprinting. I sent to my lawyer and have not heard back. Again, totally understand, family absolutely comes first. That being said I am very anxious about ignoring a court order while waiting for my attorney to advise me on what to do. I’m hearing different advice from everyone and figured I’d ask the real experts. I don’t want to get in trouble for not complying with a court order, but would it be wise to wait for my attorney to tell me what to do? It’s just simple fingerprinting so I thought I could just go but everyone is telling me to wait for his instruction.

Thank you!

I have court Wednesday where I will be accepting the offer. 2 years supervised SIS probation is part of this deal. I’m not implying that I do not deserve to face the consequences of my actions in the slightest. I know I deserve it. That said, ever since the event happened almost 5 months ago (no accident no damage first-offense dwi) I have been a shell of myself. Before this, I had the most beautiful life. Great friends, stable with my parents, perfect relationship, best jobs, 4.0 in college, the list goes on. Additionally, I was so full of life, outgoing, positive and just happy to be here. I recognize how awful and selfish my decision that night to drive home from the bar was, and trust me, there is nothing you could say to me about it that I haven’t already said to myself. Ashamed does not even touch the way that I feel. There was no accident, injury, speeding etc and this is the first and only time I have ever been in trouble with the law as a mid 20s woman. I guess I’m asking for advice or, I don’t know. How do I mentally survive the next 2 years if the first 4.5 months have been this difficult already? I’ve contemplated ending it so many times. I wake up every day crying and feeling sick. I go days without eating or drinking water. I have pushed away all of my friends so I don’t have them. I’m failing a class and so my gpa will get hit. I have to postpone or give up on applying to the medical program now because obviously they’re not going to want me. I don’t see anyone, I don’t do anything. I’ve lost 30 pounds in 2 months. I don’t do anything I used to love because I can’t find joy in anything. I could keep going.. I don’t know how I’m going to get through probation between the already overwhelming shame and guilt and misery I feel and with restrictions on travel (bit of a free bird who enjoys outdoor adventures out of state), school being pushed back, missing events and being my spontaneous self. Most of all I miss my personality and who I was, and I’m worried that I robbed myself of that version of me the second I decided to get behind the wheel that day. I don’t know why I’m rambling I guess I just don’t really have anyone to say all this to.