No idea what I’m doing
I’m at wits end. Life at home is bordering on unbearable right now. I don’t know how to talk to my Q about his issues with alcohol. Every time I try to bring it up, he plays victim and the conversation goes nowhere. I know I can’t force him to stop. I thought I broke through to him once and asked him to stop drinking for a month. He did. Then, on that 32nd day, he cracked open that beer again and now it seems worse than before. Until now, I never considered leaving. But I know I can’t continue like this…not for me and not for my kids.
I’ve found some Al Anon meetings in my area that I’d like to go to but have no idea what to expect.
I’m not sure what I’m asking for here. Just feeling lost and I don’t feel like I have anyone in my life I can open up to about this. I hear about stories of people who have lived in sobriety for decades, and that gives me hope. But I’m well past the point in my life where hope is enough. I just don’t know where to go from here. Sometimes I think he literally wants to drink himself to death. And I don’t know what to do with that.