I’m divorcing
Man I’m divorcing the love of my life. She admitted to cheating on me because she thought I cheated on her.
I can’t continue. She wants or wanted to continue (idk anymore I don’t really talk with her)
She probably moved on or is talking with another guy(s).
I’ve lost 20kg and am physically in the best shape I’ve been in 3 years. We married young and are still young. I’m 22 and she’s 20.
I’ve known her for 3 years.
First 2 weeks were hell. Then till now some up and downs and mostly feeling pretty good and not thinking about her. But these past 4 days I’ve just been thinking 24/7 about her.
I’m so sad. I don’t feel like living and I have no one to really talk to. Idk what’s going on anymore. Money has been great recently and health too. But I just feel so empty now. I starve myself everyday and I’ve lost my appetite. I used to love eating and am known for that. Now I puke out almost everything I eat and live off supplements and proteïne shakes.
The gains are amazing though haha
But still, I can’t understand how she could’ve done that to me. Is she really that evil? I try to understand as just a mistake people make when they’re young but my heart can’t stop shaking. I feel like crying. Today I hid all the pictures of us that we had in my gallery (2000) almost.
I don’t know what to do I feel so fucked up im crying while typing this. I keep staring off in the distance while at work and my energy is at an all time low. I just want to get in shape asap. Idk I hate myself and I am so hurt idk what to do. I’m a mess. I can’t enjoy anything anymore.
I love her so much but I just cannot forgive her. I’m miserable
Idk if anyone’s reading this but I just had to type this. Thank you for reading this if you there is anyone who reads these. Idk man