u/Hannnibalthecannibal

That's the problem, I am italian, I live in Italy, I consider myself bilingual at this point and I want to start preparing for a C1 test. In the last year I have been dating a Venezuelan woman and we only spoke in English, also she lived in Malta so I visited Malta many times speaking obviously only in English. Now this relationship sadly ended and I'm scared I will lose all the progress that I have made by talking daily in English with someone. What can I do to keep my English on check? I watch movies and TV series in English and when I can I read books in English but I know that "living" the language by talking it daily it's fairly different .

I had trouble sleeping since I was 14, it got progressively worse with time, I started taking meds to sleep at 18, I'm almost 28 right now, I stopped and started falling asleep naturally 3 years ago....for a month, after it I stayed awake basically for 2 days straight and went back to even stronger pills. Right now I can count in one hand the days I fall asleep without medicine in a year. The very funny part is that, except for some cases, I don't struggle with anxiety before falling asleep, I am most of the times perfectly fine, tired and sleepy even I just...don't sleep. My therapist find it really weird and sent me to a specialist who prescribed me more meds but not sleep study. I'm so tired of taking meds after meds, I would just love to know why I can't sleep normally

That's it, it hurts so bad, I think about her constantly, I dream about her, I worry about her being fine even if she's the one who ended things. I told her multiple times that I will never stop to care about her and I never will. I loved her more than anything and I still do. I'm keeping myself busy but I have this hole in my chest and I don't know how to fill it up.