u/Happy-Challenge3677

I’ve been in love with my MM for 2 years. We are best friends. Physical for 6 months. I recently did a solo trip and it made me realize how much I want to be legit.

But he continues to tell me he needs 4 years to end his marriage. I can’t do that. He is never there when I need him emotionally, which made me go nc again after trying and failing.

I know he loves me, but is ok hurting me to not hurt his family. I keep trying to go NC, but can’t last a day. We also work together so I know I’ll see him tomorrow. I have to stick with this, it is destroying me.

How do you stick with it when you still have to see him? I just want him to choose me, but I know he won’t.