Hello, this is my first time posting, using a burner because my boyfriend has my account.
Ok so me 20f and my boyfriend 21f are very close. We have been dating for around a year and two months now. He moved in with my family due to financial reasons and struggles he was having. I live in a largerish house with my parents, three younger siblings, my best friend, and another friend that has been living with us for around 7 years now.
Background of me: as previously stated I’m 20 female, I ducked out of college last year and am struggling to work any job due to my fibromyalgia, autism, anxiety, and adhd. I have a cat with my boyfriend. I’m not sure if any of that is relevant
My boyfriend is 21 male, he is starting a job in concrete sometime in the next week. He moved out of his parent’s house at 17 due to an abusive father. He lived on his own for a while and struggled financially the whole time. I met him about two years ago and we hung out a ton, then began dating. After about 7 months my parents offered him a place to stay for free while he got his finances together and saved up enough money to live a somewhat better life, and so he could start up his business.
Now here’s where I’m struggling. I feel as though I’m losing feelings for him. I have no sexual attraction towards him anymore. I don’t know if this helps but I also stopped birth control at the beginning of this year after taking it for around 4 years straight. I’ve heard the horror stories of people losing feelings for their significant other after stopping birth control but I never thought it would happen to me.
Another thing is we spend every second together and it’s exhausting. I’ve asked for space but he then says ok in a very sad way and I feel bad.
For a while there have been little things he says that make me feel like we won’t work out. And at the beginning of the relationship I always woke up from dreams where we broke up and he wasn’t there.
I don’t think I can end things as he relies on me and my parents and he has nowhere else to go. He also lost all of his friends because he moved out and they just ditched him.
If you need anymore information please ask, I’m not good at putting this down in words unless asked specific questions, I just need advice.
TLDR: I’m losing feelings for my bf and I don’t know what to do.