As a 20 year old woman I don't know what to do anymore.
Okay so bam ten months ago my house burnt down and I moved to another state because I was already struggling and being in the area of my old home was SUPER triggering and my brother lives in my current state. When I first moved here I started renting from this woman and there were men renting from her as well (she didn't live at her place, she just rented out rooms to people) but I got assaulted by a man she was renting to simply because he was a mentally ill drug addict and I rejected his sexual advances multiple times so I left immediately without even getting my money back for rent and moved with my friend Steve I had for a few months. Steve just fucked me over and got me kicked out (he's an immigrant and met our landlord on a bdsm app) because I hooked up with one of our friends, mind you Steve and I have never had any sexual/romantic relationship, it was strictly platonic. Steve woke me up at four AM to get in bed with me (we shared a room but not the bed) and I got pissed because I offered to take the couch before we went to bed so at seven AM I woke him up because I couldn't go back to bed and he forced me to leave that place later that day, the landlord didn't back me up either. She just said he said I had to go so my friend from Church got me and called our Bishop so I got a hotel for a week. While at the hotel no one could figure out anywhere for me to go. My last night at the hotel my friend John let me crash with him but he was trying to control my life and just wasn't considerate at all of my plans and things I had to do, plus he lived far from buses so I was kinda stuck at his place so I left. All of this being said now I am currently at my friends who knows my history and everything that's happened and she's been really chill but I guess we're dating and just living with someone is kinda too much for me now. My friend Ally (whom I currently am staying with) kinda pushes sex just because she knows I slept with a mutual friend of Steve and I so I feel like she feels a way about it because she said it made her insecure but I just don't wanna have sex so I didn't know what to say. It is also just too much living together:She's always home, I think it'll ruin our friendship in the long run, she blasts her games and music SUPER loud even if she sees me sleeping, she wants me to get food stamps and stuff but I don't think it's for me to get on my feet. I think she just wants to use me because I'm here rent free I've been cooking and cleaning and providing what I can when I have money but I've noticed she'll make a million dishes for me. Point is I'd just like to live alone or move back in with my grandma but she hasn't gotten a new place since her home burned down. I can't afford a lawyer for the assault and I hate the fact that this guy is going to get away with it because I was in SEVERE pain for two months before I started to feel better and it is just not fair. I also am coming off fentanyl because it was the only pain relieving drug I could find in my area. Also yes staying somewhere rent free I am beyond grateful but I don't wanna feel pressured into a relationship that's like that and she only has her place because of family helping her so I just feel like if I give her my food stamps and spend whatever money I do have I can honestly only imagine how it could get worse and I can barely take care of myself, I don't wanna use my only resources on someone else when they have help if that makes sense. I also have no money because I couldn't walk when I first got assaulted and because no bones were broken my job let me go and I used up all my money on rent. So ffs what do I do? I am on the verge on a breakdown EVERY day if I'm not already having one.