Just something I wanted to write/came upon my mind before I sleep
Let me ask you something. Why do you play games? Why are they so important to you? Why do they hit different? Well let me tell you my thoughts.
Sometimes us, as gamers, we have to let go. Of our stress, of the world we are living in. To escape to a new world, where we can truly feel connected. Where we can truly feel a part of. That we belong in. People may say video games make us weak, that is absolutely not true. Its more of a mental tool, a resource to guide us, to improve our mental health, to make us feel happier. Its a safe space, essentially and these safe spaces lets us feel certain emotions. Some of these games are where we can process stress, grief, pain, and loneliness. By going through a good story (keyword good story, ill return to this in a bit), and teaching us that there is joy, happiness, and hope in the other side of stress and pain that we may feel in our everyday lives or in the real world.
I feel this by playing my favorite resident evil games, being a cleon shipper (romantic ship between Claire Redfield and Leon Kennedy), I am one of the biggest, hard-core, passionate cleon shippers you will see out there. But we are getting a little off topic here.
For me, where this begins was The Last of Us. I found a safe space. I found comfort. I found that through all stresses of the real world, a place I could escape to. In Joel and Ellie's story. Joel lost his daughter Sarah, was broken for years. Ellie kept losing the people she cared about, and was a orphan practically all her life. Joel found a second chance to be a father and to have a daughter again in Ellie. In the other side, Ellie found someone who stayed for her, someone who loved her, and she had family. She had a father. She had someone by her side. And she loved Joel back (note we are talking about the real Ellie not tlou2 ellie). This is what we play games for. The Last of Us taught me that there is joy, happiness and hope at the other side of stress and pain. I loved these characters, and connected with them all the way.
Then here comes the absolute shitbox TLOU2 was that goes against everything we play video games for. Good story to improve our mental health, and create a safe space where we feel we can truly belong, where we can feel connected? Not even close. This game takes all the stress and sadness we are feeling in our lives, and just makes it a million times worse. The characters we love are nonexistent. They're destroyed. They're killed off or broken. Yeah depression, its basically the whole game. Depression simulator. Misery porn.
You know what message it sends? Its literally just a fuck you to people who loved the first game. Its literally Neil saying "oh you liked the first game, you liked the characters, you like the special Joel and Ellie father daughter bond", well you can forget all about that, the only thing that matters is my golden, perfect character Abby. I didn't want to play 12 hrs as a character I hated.
So no, I didnt escape to a new world. I wasn't in a world where I felt connected. Where I felt a part of. I wasn't happier, I was depressed, dissapointed, and angry. I didn't feel like it was a safe space. I didn't feel it taught me that there is joy, happiness, and hope on the other side of pain. Because where tf is that hope at the end of the game. Ellie loses her fingers, loses her only father, loses Dina, I mean shit can't get any worse. But yeah that's not canon. The canon is Ellie and Joel living a happy, peaceful life together, loving each other like they always have being one great family as father and daughter, constantly going out on patrols, joking and making fun of each other.
Many people tell me, I'm sorry you had to go through TLOU2, idk how you could recover through that. And my answer to that is I have been actively and passionately shipping and hoping for Cleon in resident evil and its healed me. Of course, it won't completely mend the scars, as this cannot be completely healed. But yeah that's how I feel. And thanks for reading. Good night ya'll... and remember from the good and great stories (like The Last of Us 2013 with Joel and Ellie), that joy, happiness, and hope can be found in times of stress and pain even when it seems impossible