am i in the wrong for distancing myself from someone because they hurt me?
forgive me as this is my first post on reddit after lurking for quite awhile so if there’s anything wrong with my post or flair please let me know. i won’t take offense and there are no numbers in the post, it’s semi long, and i tried to use somewhat vague language :)
but for context: i’ve had an ed on and off since i was about >!13!< and i’ve always struggled with keeping friends because i was jealous of them after >!gaining weight!<. which has been an on and off thing since then. i made a new friend last year, and it was going great, but she also has the same struggles as me so to speak.
there is a moment that sticks out to me more than others and i feel very selfish and vulnerable talking about this, but one night after swimming, while in active recovery i wanted to borrow my “friends” clothes cause i went swimming in my shirt (for obvious reasons) and there were 2 other girls there as well. she let the two other girls borrow cute tank tops and shirts but i got a ugly beige baggy sweatshirt lol and she had snapped at me when i mistook the tank top as being for me. she has also implied other things about me which has made me feel self conscious and i understand she struggles and it causes her to lash out at people but i felt like it was unfair to me because she gets upset when the same thing happens to her which i completely understand but find hypocritical.
i told someone we have mutual friends with that i didn’t want to hang around her because of her comments and the way she carries herself but i feel like it’s my fault cause I’m aware it’s in my head but it’s really hard for me to be around people like that and really stresses me out to stop being friends with people because i have a hard time making them
the mutual friend was supportive at least and understood, but i’m afraid that the “friend” will say things about me and hurt me further as she’s done this to everyone even her own best friend and i just feel so lost at the moment as i’ve tried so hard to get better for my mom and i can feel myself relapsing :(
any advice is appreciated though :)