u/Happybeee

Hi everybody, I know there’s another sub to ask questions for family members and things like that of people with schizophrenia, but I wanted to come here and I’d love your advice

I dated the love of my life, and unfortunately, he broke up with me because of his illness and things kept deteriorating and getting worse and as far as I know they still are. We parted on good terms. When we broke up, he told me that he loves me and he will most likely love me for the rest of his life, but he can’t even manage himself right now let alone a relationship. He told me he trusts nobody not even his family or friends and we continue to talk for 10 months after we broke up in the last time I heard from it was January.

Unfortunately, he changes his phone number often because of the paranoia and I don’t have access to his new one.

I used to always send him quotes and he would really enjoy that and tell me how much it means to him. He’s been heavy on my mind lately and I wanted to send him two books directly from Amazon, I know his address so I wouldn’t have to actually go myself Amazon would deliver them for me.

From what I know things still are not good at all with him. He’s a paranoid schizophrenic and I would love to send him these books because he’s a reader and a writer and words mean a lot to him, but I worry that if I send them through the mail he will get scared because it’s an unknown package. I was planning on writing the name on the delivery field with his full name and then from my name so he knows it’s not a threat.

I still love this man with everything I have in me and I know he’s isolating and alone right now and I want to extend some kindness without wanting anything back

How would you feel if someone sent you a package that you haven’t talked to since January?

The last thing I wanna do is make him more paranoid or scare him in anyway, but I just wanna show him that there’s still people in his corner.

I would be so grateful for any advice or anything you’d like to share. Thank you so much.