Hello guys, I am an 18 yo who's life feels like some discipline/dopamine trap. It's very hard for me to stay focussed on stuff in the long run. E.g, after motivating myself to do leisure activies like gym/reading, i get quite motivated and imagine myself insanely jacked or reading a new book each month. But then the same pattern occurs, in which I quickly lose interest in the activity. It's probably because I don't get instant results.
I struggle with planning my life in the "medium long" run and sticking to that and find myself on instagram, doomscrolling and completely forgetting my goals. And mind you, this realisation often happens a week or two after my motivation skyrocketed. I know that I should just stick to whatever I have in mind doing, stick to a routine and a lifestyle. I am also aware that Rome wasn't built in a day, but my mind keeps telling me:" This time will be different." And I believe I can push this switch which adds a habit to my day. This is quite brutal, because I can be pretty enthusiastic. I love life, and I love to learn new stuff, but I feel very down when I think of things I started and didn't finish/try a bit longer.
I don't know what I want to achieve with this post, maybe I just wanted to put my problems out there, maybe I believe there's a magic solution to sticking to something rather than just doing exactly that...