(English isn't my native language and this is my first Reddit post)
Hi, I know this sounds ridiculous but hear me out. I (23f) still live with my mom and her partner (I have health issues, I can't find a job and everything is expensive) and her at least 50 guinea pigs (aka around 22 cages/homes). It begun in 2018/2019 when she got her first skinny guinea pig and she decide to start helping them/adopting them. It was nice from her to save them and I honestly enjoyed it too, but after some years later I start little bit resent them.
Our flat isn't big (we were told, that it's for two people) and the cages with guinea pigs are in every room (not in the bathroom) and including my room. I have 9 cages (20 guinea pig. Three of them are alone, cuz they're not friendly with another guinea pigs) in my room and my room isn't exactly big.
(My mom is taking very good care of them. They have everything, what they need, so don't worry. She don't neglect them.)
For few years I didn't mind to help to take care of them, but now? Now I don't. I start resent them several months ago, but now it's getting worse. I hate their noises, I hate their smell, I hate their nibbling their cages (because they can't wait five seconds before they got their food). I hate how I mop the floor and I still find piece of hay, even I swept the floor twice.
I am not violent person, but my mind is wild. Whenever they start making noises, I feel tense, flustrated and pissed. Sometimes I say "just shut up" or something like this, but obviously it doesn't help. I feel ashamed by those "pictures" and thoughts in my mind, but I try everything to distract myself even it's useless.
I love my mom, don't get me wrong, but there is one thing. My mom twice didn't want tell me, that she is going save another guinea pigs (she said we are full, but I guess not) and when she told me, she thought it's funny. It wasn't.
I hate how my mom speak with them - the voice is overly sweet/high pitched and it drive me crazy. I hate it. I had at least two 'bigger' breakdowns, when my mom speaked with me about guinea pigs without break. I become more vulgar, when no one is at home or I simply curse under my breath.
Thanks for answers and I apologize for the long post. If the post is 'wrong' or doesn't belong here, I apologize ans I delete my post^^