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I just need to get this out but I feel like I fucked everything up. The same cut, caught my friends attention and told me, "Yk, you have a cut on your leg.." and I said "i know". I'm the one who put it there, now, I feel so disgusting for not hiding it better. I didn't even try to hide it because I'm was done with trying to hide it in the lockerroom all the time. It's not completely healed but enough where I thought it wouldn't catch anyones attention. Yet I'm so stupid, it's red and still has small scabs. I feel disgusting for not hiding it, for not being a better person. I want to quit but I can't. I told my friend something that happened(some drama) and now two of my friends aren't friends with each other anymore. I feel so guilty for telling her, I don't think I should've said anything because everything would've been better. My partner is getting help, so I can't reach out to him. And I accidentally made him upset. There's so much happening that I'm so emotionally exhausted, I feel like I messed everything up, and now, just as I was getting better. It's getting worse again, and I don't think I can stop it this time. I don't know what to do anymore. Even my parent noticed. I hope I don't bother them anymore, at some point.