How to get over rabies ocd if you die if you get it wrong
[REPOST BECAUSE MY OTHER POST WONT LET ME SEE COMMENTS]
Before I start, I’m in therapy and trying medications.
I have had severe OCD for over a year now that currently revolves around rabies and bats. I CONSTANTLY think a bat bit me. For example, today alone I kicked a sock in my room without looking and thought what if I hit a bat and the sock just happened to also be there, heard leaves rustling I walked by and thought a bat was there and definitely got me, and when leaving a restaurant felt something hit my arm or wind move my shirt or idk and I’m CONVINCED a bat flew into my arm, bit me and flew off before I had time to assess or look to see it (was leaving a work lunch so couldn’t look around for a bat in the plants right next to the door without looking crazy).
My OCD boils down to a fear of dying from something totally preventable due to me not acting on it and/or me not noticing. I wish I was just afraid of bats outside but I’m convinced they are EVERYWHERE, in my house, in my office, in every bush, etc. and anytime I feel ANYTHING I think it was a bat. People tell me I’d feel or see a bat so just need to trust myself but I can’t trust what I feel or see because I CONSTANTLY convince myself I saw or felt something. I’ve been bit by a bat at least 37 times today in my mind and I’ll create the feeling and scenario for each.
My therapist says I have to accept the unknown but I’m really struggling on that. I wish I was back on my old OCD theme that was leaving the burner on or water running and destroying my house because I can’t figure out how to get over this one when the reality is, if I get something wrong I simply die which feels like a huge problem