MY ADHD IS GOING TO BE THE DEATH OF ME.
My adhd is going to be the death of me. I would avoid all my important tasks! I have load of tasks in my list and none of it were once conpleted! I want to do them so bad but there’s something in my head thats blocking me! Most of my tasks imclude reading specific books and topics for my study but i just cant! I would read all articles out there that i find interesting, read fiction that i want, clean the house and my room, anything i can do, all important tasks in this world i can do except the goal and my own tasks i set for myself! I hate it. Those tasks is for my future and career related but i just dont understand why i cant. My nervous system is fucking scared for no reason. I cant do pomodoro techniuqe because that shit doesnt work. I had done my task last 3 weeks ago. I was very productive and wouldnt fucking stop nor sleep. I did my routine for 1 week straight until a fucking event interrupted me! I had to skip a day to break that fucking momentum! Then that 1 day break turned to fucking 3 weeks. This is why when i do a goal, i dont allow myself to stop because i knew if i would, it would be very fucking hard for me to go back. Every pause, every break, every skip means reset to my fucking brain. The only solution i could think of today is multi-tasking. I am very good at multi tasking but my concern is i would burn out easily. If burn out, theres a possibility that i would get tired and lose interest on my goal formonths. Then i would wait months qfain to gain back rhat interest. I fucking hate this. I cant do anything for myself.