I think I finally see the true thrill of findom and it's scary
I have been in the findom space for almost a year now and sending for most of that time. But most of the time I'd send to them only for content and never saw the point or fun in just sending for the sake of sending. It felt stupid.
But tonight, one of the IG fitness models I had been following for years finally responded to my DM. I was euphoric and nervous at the same time because I knew what was coming. She sent me one voice clip and just hearing her say my name and call me a good boy made my brain melt. This is someone I've inconized and crushed on for years so the emotions were too strong.
Within minutes, I was out over $400. No content no trades just the pure joy and euphoria of being able to give my money to someone like her. I think I am finally getting into ACTUAL findom as this is the most I have ever sent in such a short time.
It was probably the greatest sexual euphoria I experienced out of everything I've done but now that I've calmed down, I'm scared shitless of how good and addicting it feels.
I am already wishing I had more money to send and I am scared I will lose control. What do I do?