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I recently discovered election/ Calvinism and it’s been torture. I am not so unsure of my salvation. I’ve been getting into prayer begging God to save me. Sometimes all I can ask is for forgiveness all day and mercy. Throwing myself on him for my salvation. I can’t pray about anything but this. What else can I ask for but mercy and for him to save my soul from damnation? My prayers are just cries. Has anyone experience this?

There is no point of life. I want to please God and just submit to him. I want God. I want to honor Jesus. But OCD is ending me. All I think about is salvation and hell. And what if I am not chosen/elected. I cry out to the Lord day and night. This is not how I want to live. I repent for idolatry and for unbelief. OCD is so debilitating. Especially when it comes to the subject of salvation.

I have recently learned that eating disorders are sins. As we are hurting the temple of the Holy Spirit. But I keep throwing up knowing it’s a sin. And then I beg God for forgiveness. I know this is grieving the spirit. I hate myself. I willingly do it. I’m afraid the Lord is angry with me. As I do it and then beg for repentance.

Hi brother and sisters in Christ I have a question. I am a sorry excuse of a Christian. I am struggling with assurance of faith over and over. I deal with OCD. I am tormented about not being saved. I deal with this and I can't produce any fruit of the Spirit. I don't even know if I am truly saved or a reprobate. Part of me wishes I was never made. But how can I tell God that. I can't function. I am in despair.

Hi yall,

Quick question. Recently I have been getting into praying more since I have a lot to cry out to God for. However sometimes I don’t know what to say so recently I’ve been writing out my prayers instead. Is writing out prayers the same as saying them out loud? Or should I just say them. I didn’t find anything in the bible about it besides going into the secret place.

I recently developed this fear of being truly saved and not having false assurance of salvation since learning about predestination . I have repeatedly asking Jesus to save me I truly believe in him. But my brain and mind keeping saying what if I’m not elected/ chosen? I don’t want to die and find out I was going to hell. This has clouded my mind for the past month. I can’t eat drink, I keep thinking I’m just having peace on this earth to die and go to hell.

Hi so I believe Calvin teaches something called “evanescent” grace which is where a reprobate person can experience the grace of God and think they’re saved. In this system does that mean we can have absolutely no assurance of our own salvation? Calvin says I believe that the reprobate in this instance is almost indistinguishable from the saved. Can anyone help please?

I deal with religious OCD. I a constantly looping if I a saved. I know in my heart that Jesus is the only reason I am saved. And this lifts a great deal of worry because I couldn’t be more grateful. But my mind just keeps going about salvation. I’ve become so depressed. Is this considered a sin? Because I’m placing my trust in my own assurance? I keep repenting because I know it’s wrong.

I am struggling y’all. All I think about is God. And how every single thing I do has to please him. And maintaining a pure heart. But I can’t do anything else. Like I can’t have conversations and watch anything without feeling guilty. Like I feel like I can’t live normal life. I also feel depressed about this

I’ve been really struggling with my faith lately and I honestly don’t know what to do. I feel like being a Christian is so hard, and I keep feeling like I’m not even genuine. I want to follow God, but my flesh feels so weak and I keep messing up, and it makes me feel embarrassed to even call myself a Christian sometimes.

I also have this constant fear that maybe I don’t have the Holy Spirit, and that’s why I’m struggling so much. Like what if I’m not actually saved or not truly changed? My thoughts keep going in circles and it’s exhausting. I don’t feel peace or confidence, just a lot of fear and doubt.

At the same time, I do want God. I care about Him and I want to be close to Him, but my mind makes me question everything, even my own intentions. It makes me feel like nothing I say or do is genuine.

Has anyone else felt like this before? What does it actually feel like to be a genuine Christian? And how do you know if you really have the Holy Spirit?

I am depressed and hopeless. I am not sure I am saved. I want to be saved I believe in God and the Lord Jesus. My mind has been looping with my OCD and sometimes I wonder if I am lying to myself. I want God to take me home with him. I am a hopeless sinner. But I would burn in hell if I am not saved. I hate that I was even born. I don’t want God to separate me

How do we know if we have genuine faith in Christ? I am afraid what if I don’t?

Some, after having been long silent, and so practically denying Christ, go farther, and apostatize altogether from the faith they once had. No man who hath a genuine faith in Christ will lose it, for the faith which God gives will live for ever.

— Charles Spurgeon, titled "Suffering and Reigning with Jesus" (also known in some collections as a sermon on 2 Timothy 2:12)