u/HeadacheTunnelVision

I wear 6.5 in women's and apparently I only fit into men's youth sizes, usually 4 to 5 depending on the brands I tried on. I just checked a few shoe stores and left feeling super defeated. Youth section is full of Velcro shoes and bright kid colors. I love Vans and used to wear them in my younger years but I have high arches and a ton of foot pain I deal with daily so I can't wear them anymore. I'm also a nurse so I have to wear good walking shoes, right now I'm wearing women's On Clouds but I just can't stand looking at them anymore because they are too feminine.

Please help. I'm so miserable with my shoe situation. It was hard enough before I started to transition and now it's just massively dysphoric.