People calling me slurs, anti trans protests, people denying me housing for being trans, anti trans newspapers at the grocery store I go to, people threatening me for being trans (and for being an "american jew")
This country is fucked.
I was so deeply surrounded by afab/amab terminology that I think a part of why I let myself continue down that path was bcuz i saw telling ppl i was a dood as more afably than being a literal trans woman
was like the one fucking thing I had to look forward to soon fuck youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu fucking shit i hate you aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
ive never wanted to hurt anyone ive never wanted to be troublesome for anyone i literally just exist with autism and being trans and yet everyone hates me and wants me dead and wont rent to me or hire me or even just leave me be
why cant i just be a person why why why why why why fucking why
the only place out of like 100s ive messaged that will have me is in the middle of fuckall and the area has fascist posters up and it's with cismoids and has mold and other bullshit problems i cant imagine not wanting to kill myself there
Everything about the far right protestors exuded just... being dead inside?
I think I hold in my head and heart more emotional regulation than the entirety of those people combined.
They all looked physically like they were falling apart, i dont know how to put it, it was like arguing with literal zombies.
Ran into an anti trans protest while already in a shit mood, so I shouted back at them as they used their bullhorn.
I shouted that the far right is the threat to people's children, how they want to take away their schools, housing and healthcare, and how hating trans kids wont solve their problems.
They eventually packed up and left.
Fuck yea.
"Sorry only females"
>message male housing
"Sorry only males"
I got that axab soup
I walk by this place constantly, and a black man was just murdered there
jesus fucking christ.
On the right you have the "detoxes" with random bullshit off the internet, you have people trying to treat their own cancer, etc etc
On the left you have DIY abortions, discussions of people getting treatments for ignored chronic illnesses, etc
Only when it's one of us is it suddenly super dangerous and evil
https://gofund.me/b1b8b1bd5
As stated before, left my spouse due to domestic violence and am homeless as a result
I'm severely struggling to find someone who will let me rent due to being trans and disabled.
The hostel dorm I'm staying in while I look, despite being the cheapest one i could find, is still very expensive compared to the daily cost of being in a properly rented room.
Any amount matters, even if its just enough to get myself food for a day
thank u <3
The resilience and self assuredness ingrained into me by a rugged childhood
The confidence brought on from those initial surges of energy testosterone gave me
The charming young man I used to be, and the little ways I can still swoon people with my winks and smiles.
Sure, being afab is pretty and all that, but they will never understand the DIVINE and SACRED amably experience.
IWNB a pretty plus sized robot girl
IWN own a puppycat
IWN have magical powers
it's so over :{
aaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
In Ireland most listings for rooms are gender segregated.
Female ones dont want me because im trans, male ones dont want me because my docs are changed (female name/sex marker) and bcuz well, im trans.
the very few that arent segregated dont want me because my money comes from disability and family, despite having more than enough to rent a room.
I guess I should've known by now after a decade of being out that the safety nets in place for people leaving domestic violence were not going to work for me, as it's not the first time I've lived this, but it never gets easier.
I've talked to ADAPT, they couldnt place me.
I've talked to other places, couldnt place me.
I've been staying in shitty dorm hostels that cost me over twice what it'd cost per day to just rent a fucking place to live and I'm so pissed off and so tired and honestly kinda wanna die.
All property is now owned by blackrock.
You earn tokens to spend on a day's stay in blackrock's Aparthotels by working in a factory making Ram sticks for open AI
Every 100th ram stick you make gives you a food token to spend at your local amazon grocery store
Your electricity goes out regularly because of the power companies deciding to prioritise AI data centers over people
Every post you make praising elon musk gives you one good boy token, these can be spent on things like showers and use of the oven in your Aparthotel.
Everyone gets a mandatory hormone check once per 6 months to make sure they're remaining their TRUE biological sex.
Most people are actually pretty fine with all of this, except for trans people and poc.
Too many bad posts and a palantir drone nvkes u from orbit.
I went to rehab and got clean of all my major addictions
I fixed my health as much as I could
I fought for fair agreements with my prior landlord
I did so fucking much and it's all being cucked by my ex lowk im so pissed off
ive gotten this comment so many times the past few days and it really makes me wonder how many of you ACTUALLY get he/himmed the majority of the time in your day to day life lmao
Jesus fucking christ I'm going to go insane.
