Struggling to manage stress/anxiety
Probably not alone in feeling completely unprepared for F2 coming to the end of F1. Feel very much in the valley of despair part of the Dunning Kruger curve.
But I just seem to be rubbish at managing my stress related to work. I’m on edge all the time, barely sleeping at night so so worried about making a mistake. Every day my brain finds something to worry about, always feel like I’ve forgotten something important or I’ve missed something. Convinced it’s a matter of time before I hurt someone and lose my license. It feels like this will never get better and that the stress will never be worth it.
I don’t think I’m a good doctor but I feel like I’m not getting any better because I’m spending all my time worrying and stressing. I look at my peers who just seem to be able to compartmentalise and are so much more sensible than I am.
I know everyone finds F1 hard, but did anyone seriously think about quitting or actually quit? Did anyone have anxiety so bad they didn’t think they were cut out to be a dr and somehow improved?