How to get back out there, when you really don't want to?
Just to clarify, I do want a relationship, to find love. The title refers to how the usual ways of meeting someone, don't work for me.
So I am 38 soon to be 39 male and gearing up for my mid life crisis.
I have had one relationship in my life started at 26 and lasted two and a half ISH years. First love, first, sex, first time making every dumb choice in the how not to handle a break up book.
I'm an introverted gamer type, intelligent and kind but not the most social of people, and average at best looking.
I want to find love but outside of chance I just don't see it happening.
Apps, let's be realistic I'm not a 9 or a 10, for most dating apps out there this means I've no chance, and sadly this bears out in my experience.
Local events? I simply have no such interests, I am a homebody through and through. There are no local clubs that interest me and I'm not feigning interest on the unlikely chance I might find love.
Online? Tried that with no success, I mainly play single player games but do play FFXIV and have honestly never made a meaningful connection on it with anyone.
Through friends? An already very limited pool and sadly I've asked to no avail, work too, I've asked colleagues I am on good terms with.
I work hospitality so when everyone else is out mingling I am working.
I'm teetotal, I do NOT drink alcohol of any kind and do not enjoy being in pubs/bars and the moment people start getting tipsy I am uncomfortable and want to leave.
Gyms are not for me, tried, and no.
I know the truth, I am the problem. No one owes you love in life, no one owes you their time or attention, it is up to me to be the best person I can be, to build an awesome life on my own that someone may want to share in it.
It's not Gona happen though, almost 40, fat, not the best looking and about a social as the wall you tell your problems to.
I do the best I can to enjoy my life, flawed though it may be.
Hope though, bitter illusion it may be, rears it's spite filled head ever and ever.
So I ask you if you know anything, have any suggestions that might point me in the right direction?