u/HeathenHumanist

...just remember to take care of yourselves. PTSD is no joke.

And please know that you're not alone in still struggling. I was just talking to my therapist today about how my body still clenches up when I even start to think about what happened, and I'm still physically incapable of talking about it (my throat starts closing up). I had a full panic attack once after a balloon popped and sounded too much like a gunshot.

Take care of yourselves. Maybe also avoid the internet so you don't accidentally stumble across the video, since I'm sure they will be circulating again soon.

I really hope UVU focuses on us and our experience and resilience more than the person who died. Living with this trauma is a nightmare.

...for keeping an excellent Customer Service polite face/response even while being trapped against the drink machines by an older woman dressed like she'd just come back from the temple, bearing her testimony right in the dude's face. He helped her with a drink thing, then out of nowhere she goes "You know a great thing about my church? That we believe families can be together forever! I just love that about my church, knowing that I will be with my family forever! Isn't that neat??"

Poor dude just plastered the customer service smile on and politely nodded while she went on and on. When she finally left him alone I made brief eye contact with him and gave him a sympathetic smile as I walked to the registers.

"Why is it you exmos leave the church but don't leave it alone?" Because of people like YOU, lady!!!! Nobody asked for your religious beliefs! Just let me get my gas station coffee+cappuccino in peace!!