Help type me!!!
I know for certain that I am an introvert, but that is honestly where it ends. Ive been researching mbti for a while now, and decided to take a break because i was beginning to spiral... but now I think I am genuinely ready again to start relearning mbti after a huge break. Ive been typed most as INFJ, INTJ, INTP, INFP, ISTP (i did get ENTP and ENFP before but that was only something i held onto for a few weeks, the other types i believed i was for 5+ months). I am 90% sure I am a 4w5, but I'm pretty sure that shouldn't have an effect on MBTI.
The reason why I struggled with finding my type was because i strongly resonated with INFJ's cognitive functions, but i was firmly against the belief that i was empathetic. Speaking with my ENFJ friend tires me instantly because I don't know how to act like I care and be empathetic naturally, so it takes up a lot of my energy. Also, I am someone who thinks critically and my problem solving is a long process.
I am a young female studying engineering, and the eldest child of immigrant parents. I used to suffer from OCD-like symptoms but was never properly diagnosed, and I have a genuine issue with experiencing constant jealousy of people that i know personally, not like social media influencers.
Something I noticed that i struggle with is ie: when I had my component of the project due in class where i needed to sketch out an entire complex system for my engineering project, I started off very early, getting everything planned, but when it came to actually using the CAD software, I blanked and froze, I could not start sketching out the design until I physically forced myself to make the first line, and after that i finished the 5 weeks of work i missed in 4 hours straight. Similarly, I freak out and feel like I need to plan every single detail for trips I am planning to go on in three years but I will always just end up winging it in the moment because i dont account for a lot of things before hand.
The problem is is that i see myself in a different way compared to different people (context shifts my self perception). Ie, when hanging out with my ESFJ and ENFJ friends, they always tell me I am way too last minute, since I love to just get to the public transportation first and then decide where to go rather than planning at home. However, my ENFP friend tells me I am someone who plans too much ahead. If i had to decide for myself, I would say i plan ahead for the unimportant things but the important ones I forget to plan for or I unrealistically decide i can wing it in the moment.
I am also someone who sometimes subconsciously decides to do things, and I try to stick to it because if i open myself to other options I will open a can of worms and be very stuck behind, ie. for study abroad i have had my mind set on Japan, I think it was because I saw a box of Japanese ramen noodles in the store 8 years ago and I thought it was so crazy I didn't know how to read those characters, so I decided to learn Japanese and I decided I was going to go study abroad there... all in 7th grade LOL. But otherwise, I am a very indecisive person. I cannot order drinks at a store because when none of them speak to me, I don't know what to get. If i really am stuck, I will end up getting the one with the least calories or the cheapest.
I hope this is enough information, sorry for any typosss