Suffering for not having a fake face
Been in various corporate roles for over 14 years now. One thing I can't do is have a fake self at work. If I am having a good time at work, you will see it. I made a mistake at work, you will hear it from me. I cannot play games (I feel I am physically and intellectually incapable of doing so).
I am still a hard worker and tend to get promoted in the first couple of years in most orgs I've worked with. After a point, this inability of mine starts to hinder my peace at work. In almost all organizations, I left because I was targeted for something I had not done by someone who very much had the capacity to be fake and "play the game." I like my work but this really weighs me down and I cannot perform once I am embroiled in these situations... I just give up... I lose interest and once I lose interest, it becomes impossible for me to perform. I don't know if something is wrong with me or with the world.