u/Hefty-Eggplant-7766

I know the sentiment is that I’m deluded, no such thing as mind read and all that. And I believe that I do, it’s just kids are sentient around me, they’re conscious, aware. On TV, Reddit, tik tok, or hearing stories, I hear how they’re dumb like how I was as a kid, don’t know any better. But around me, nah, they sometimes be the main ones messing with me, and ragebaiting me 😭😭.

Ex. I’m playing the game with my brother, and here I am in my thoughts saying, “you know, a life with schizophrenia isn’t so bad, I could live like this enjoying life with my older brother” then bam! His son hurls up the fake controller he was holding in his hands and gives me the straightest face ever 😂😂. I mean can anyone relate?? lol

My cousin twice now has asked me to build something that would take hours to build. I’m doing a little bit better now and willing to communicate with her and the rest of my family now. But after almost a decade of me being a shut in she wants me to do labor for her!? Also, I watched the boys finally, and I’m like, it doesn’t feel right to pretend to be chums, after what I’ve been through, if imma be struggling, i want to be struggling alone I’m not gonna pretend I’m doing better than I am, and I won’t let anyone take advantage of me, or at least I’ll try not to, with the meds help

I mean what can I say, it’s just super useful. Drowns out voices, keeps you entertained all day. The one thing I seem to not get bored of. When I’m feeling down, it makes me motivated, nostalgic, angry, thoughtful. Just yea

I’m a thought broadcaster and people use “reading my mind” as a way to hurt me. Is this a common occurrence? Or am I really unlucky I experience both?

I’m less sensitive to sudden noises. I have a quicker recovery when I lose my cool. I have less anxiety when standing close to people. I don’t get any reaffirmations in life, and when I do lose my cool I lose sight of my progress, maybe it’s a schizophrenic thing, but I just wanted to pat myself in the back real quick 🎉🥳