Are 1L+3E people prone to intellectualization?(Also, how do other 3Es feel?)
For context, I consider myself a LFEV and I think I'm just a GOD at intellectualizing, meaning I do it so often and productively that it can take up a LOT of time. I just try to understand not how but WHY am I feeling(Well, like, I can just dissociate from the emotions in my thoughts, even though my body will feel bad and my eyes will be wet lol. Emotional thoughts arise less often if the situation is really shitty) and NOT let my emotions control me.
I'm terribly afraid of my emotional side and avoid it. I feel like if I lose it, I'll immediately become pathetic and incompetent. I'm constantly trying to rationalize it, shut it up, or hide it. I spend a lot of time wondering why things even happen.But at the same time, 4V does not allow me to resolve my complexes and fears associated with this topic.
And the most interesting thing is that I wouldn't say that I'm super-emotional in most cases? Like, yes, I often feel fear or anxiety. But I don't experience other emotions in most cases.Like, my actual range of emotions consists of anxiety, fear, and, less often, sadness/anger. And that's it? For example, for some reason I can't love or hate someone much. Or be too happy, for that matter.
Yes, even the fact that I'm complaining here and trying to understand how it works makes me feel akward. Moreover, in other things or typing others, I'm almost always confident in myself if I know the topic. But when it comes to my emotional side or identity, I'm never sure, even though I'm always trying to figure it out.
I'm not even sure about the E position specifically? Like, I think I'm definitely a high L because I'm REALLY confident in that aspect. And the fact that my V is low is also certain.About F. I'm a bit lazy, but I think I value this aspect quite a bit (considering how often I choose stability and comfort).
Why the question: do you see me as a 3E, and how do other 3Es feel in general? Has anyone had similar complexes, and how did you get rid of them? Also, how intellectual are you (especially people with 1L/2L)?
P.S:Lol, I'm even scared/uncomfortable thinking about my emotional side and how, as a child/during puberty, I was stuck in it for moments. And in general, being alone with them, especially with prolonged melancholy, scares me, although sometimes, during severe setbacks, it happens. And showing it is absolutely terrifying. (I've only done it a couple of times, and each time was crap.)