Thank you.
I wanted to take a moment to thank every one of you who post, comment, and offer sound and reasonable advice, and just overall support.
I’ve been lurking here for a few weeks, and after everything I’ve read, and internalized, I decided to leave my PA. It was a very hard decision, but one I knew I had to commit to. It’s been a long few months (thankfully only months) with him; beating myself up, wondering how I can help to change him, realizing that he probably will never beat a 20+ year addiction. The whole gambit of guilt, and sadness, and fantasizing about the person I *thought* he was and could be for me. But realistically, he won’t change. It’s been a rollercoaster with him. My nervous system is shot. I cannot fathom spending years experiencing this turmoil.
So, thank you. Honestly, thank you all for this space and your words.