My Nana decided her going on a last minute date was more important than my senior showcase (advice needed)
I 18F was really close with my grandmother 63F who I call Nana. Some context, about 3 years ago, we lost my grandfather unexpectedly and it was extremely hard for me and my family. He couldn’t walk and was in a wheelchair my whole life. My nana started spiraling after that happened, she started getting into situationships with a lot of men after about 6 months after my grandfather’s passing. Nana has chosen men over my mother (her only daughter) several times and my mom was used to it and prayed it would never happen to me or my brother.
Now back to the actual situation, she has known about my final dance showcase since August and has been telling me she was coming to support me ever since. (The showcase was this past Saturday) On Friday, Nana called me 3 times while I was at rehearsal and I wasn’t able to answer then so I called her back when I got home at 9:30 that night. She told me that she was invited on a date by a guy and that she wouldn’t be able to come anymore. Mind you, this was my last time performing, I have been working towards this all year. She said “Please don’t be upset at me.” I replied with “Of course I’m upset, this is my last showcase and you are skipping it to go on a last minute date.” After this she tried to justify it by saying “your bf will be there so it doesn’t matter if I’m there.” I told her “That doesn’t matter, you are still skipping seeing your only granddaughter perform to go on a date.” Then I said “I see where your priorities lie” and hung up the phone. I spent most of that night crying over this and I felt like I was so unloved.
On Saturday, I was distracted the whole time over this and wasn’t able to focus on it being my last showcase. I was holding out hope that she would come after what I said but she didn’t. Every time I talked about it, I would start crying again. It was already hard enough with My Papa there but she had to treat me like that. Papa is probably rolling over in his grave over this woman.
Now on Sunday was Senior Sunday at my church and Nana decided to come to that. She came into my room on Sunday morning all smiles like she did nothing wrong and I told her “I’m still really upset at you.” And she made a face at me and stormed off. She went and told my mom that I had an attitude problem. I WAS UPSET BECAUSE YOU PROMISED ME YOU WOULD BE THERE AND YOU DECIDED THAT YOUR LAST MINUTE DATE WAS MORE IMPORTANT THAN ME!!!! She left $50 on my desk as an “apology” I mailed it back to her because I don’t want to speak to her right now.
I would like advice on what to do from here, do I forgive her? How do I move on? What do I do?
Any advice would be greatly appreciated! Thank you for reading!!