Lone soldier trying to keep positivity but now crashing slowly
40M living with a partner with 6 yo daughter in the uk.
It's been many years that I have been bottling up and trying to find positives in every little thing but lately I feeling like giving up on things.
Married for 8yrs now and I didn't imagine it to be this tough and breaking slowly mentally.
My wife, everything little things is bothering her and she looses her control. When that happens neither I nor my daughter knows what to do and how to navigate thru the situation and we just quietly listen
I want to be a good role model to my daughter and I definitely not want to be her like my wife by seeing her react this I am scared that she might do the same when she grows up. I try to help my wife in every other way whether it is cooking, chores or extracting more from her life but it backfires.
I am roughly working 12hrs a day Mon-Fri, I dont ask for any help with my work or my routine, but the sheer amount of negativity around is killing me from inside. I don't know what to do. I am someone who wants to progress, be ambitious, be positive in any situation but constant negativity is hurting me badly.
Multiple times I have thought about giving up on my life but I remain intact because of my daughter. I am honestly struggling:(