All Aboard the UGHstipation Station Struggle Bus!!!
Am I the only one who starts to go into panic, anxiety attack mide if they don't have SOME sort of BM every single day or if the BM is only just s few pebbles (even if you've had no urge to go)? I find myself becoming obsessed as to whether or not I go or if the quantity isn't as much as I think it should be, mainly because I'm terrified of becoming impacted or having a bowel obstruction of some sort. I become extremely on edge & irritable, have bawled my eyes out more times than I care to admit & literally begging & praying to God to get it out of my body naturally (because who wants to endure the humiliation of having to go to the ER because you can't shut? I can't think of anything more degrading, embarrassing & humbling other than shitting yourself in public, work, family function). NEVER in my life did I EVER imagine I'd be so overwhelmingly & obsessively concerned about anything having to do with my pooping or that my daily life would revolve around every damn aspect of it!
Am.I the only passenger on the crazy bus to UGHstipationville???