u/HerAncientStories

Can't stop thinking about her argh

Hello everyone, I hope you're all doing well!

i wanted to follow up on my two previous posts with a little update.

So, a quick recap: a little over a week ago, I went on my first date ever and it was so so soooo nice. The girl was lovely, we had a really good time together. Well, I had for sure, maybe she enjoyed it a bit less than I did!... but either way, I had a great time. Right after the date, I texted her, sent her a photo of us, and told her how much fun I'd had. She replied warmly, thanking me for the moment.

The problem is: two days after the date she had to fly back to her home country. Following some advice from people here, I texted her asking if she'd want to meet again before she left - she never read it. I followed up asking how her last day in the city went and whether her flight was okay. She read it this time, but never replied. That was over a week ago now, and honestly, it stings a little...

Like, look...I get it - she has her own life, she had a long journey home, and maybe replying to someone in another country just didn't feel like a priority. Maybe she forgot, maybe she just doesn't want to. I don't know! But I can't stop thinking about her, and it's frustrating :(

I thought about texting her again, but I don't want to come across as desperate or pathetic. Part of me thinks I should just let her go. I don't know if she'll ever come back here, and I'm actually leaving the country myself next week unexpectedly, so I'll be on a different continent anyway. But I just really liked her!!! She was funny, smart, and so easygoing... So... Perfect haha (obviously not, but damnnn) I felt good and comfortable around her.

I guess I just wanted to share my thoughts and maybe hear some advice. Deep down, I know I probably need to let this go. But at the same time, maybe my feelings are amplified because it was my first date ever. Maybe she's not as perfect as my mind is making her seem right now...

My fault for going out with someone who was about to leave 😂🤡

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u/HerAncientStories — 11 days ago

Following this post: https://www.reddit.com/r/latebloomerlesbians/s/4CXJWG70OR

Today we finally met! it was so easy to talk with her, she's so interesting. I talked a bit too much, even trauma dumped a few times, EMBARRASSING! 🥲 Kinda anxious about this. I just felt very comfortable. But she's wonderful... We spent 2 hours together. We had coffee, then we walked around the city. I made her (playfully) to join me on a swing on a playground, and we were just sitting there, swinging, chatting, laughing... She made a few dirty and very funny jokes BUT I REALISED WHAT IT MEANT ONLY AT HOME LOL

She was flirting with me and I didn't understand it damn it 🤭🙈 silly me

So yeah, only two hours and she had to go. I totally developed a lil crush on her. But she's leaving soon :( to another country. So unless she comes back one day or I go to her - I won't see her again 💔

Obviously, the more time passes the more I find something to be worried about. Analysing my every word, thinking what I should've done differently

Also, I sent her our photos with a quick was nice to meet you, she said was nice to meet you too. and it's kinda closes our dialogue... Should I text something else? like that I really enjoyed her company? I don't want to annoy her or look desperate

ANYWAY, I'm glad I got courage and accepted her invitation... first little date ever 🥰

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u/HerAncientStories — 23 days ago

Chicas!!! Today will be my FIRST (coffee) DATE ever! And I'm 27... Unfortunately this girl leaves next week for good but I'm still so excited! and nervous!

But also I'm worried because... Well, I'm a late bloomer (in all the sences, not a even a hand holding ever), and only 4 months ago I finally came to terms with my sexuality.

So I'm clueless how to act so it would be a date and not a besties hangout?... like...? How not to be just girls 💅🏼💄 but girls 🥰🤭??

Also, when I thought I was straight and would daydream of a date I had the idea that a man will pay for me etc, but now the script changed lol and... Am I supposed to pay for her? Do I have to suggest it? Or 50/50?

Any advice or kind words would be appreciated!! I'm so HAPPY!:))))

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u/HerAncientStories — 24 days ago