Exhausted
five months into daily panic and anxiety after six great years with only small bouts of low level anxiety
2018 and 2019 were lost to daily panic, health anxiety that left me pretty much housebound, the whole nine yards
and to get to such a good place only to have my body come crashing back to this has just been so absolutely heartbreaking and frustrating and just in general really pisses me off
It's amazing how fast you can forget everything that you learned the first go around. I'm right back into the depths of it and I can't get a handle on it
just having sort of a no bones day and needed to vent.
I know I'll get through it. I'm just really pissed off that I have to all over again
I worked really, really hard the last time and now I am six years older and very frayed at the edges and I just really wish I wasn't having to deal with this right now on top of everything else horrible that's going on this year
Sorry for being a bummer I just needed to say this out loud somewhere that someone could see it because I hate talking to friends and family about it because there's nothing that they can do and it just bums them out😔