
The one sutra which caused a rupture.
I posted some time ago about udana 8.8 and how it doesn't sit quite right with me.
Idk. I have been in contact with buddhism for quite a long time. I came accross it in my early teenage years and it helped me a lot. I will forever be thankful for what it taught me and the anchor it gave me in my life.
I knew buddhism is about getting rid of attachments all along. There's nothing new with that.
However, when I encountered this particular sutra it just felt weird. When I first encountered it I felt it's a bit cold but I still understand it's core teaching. Yet, now I just feel more and more empty... The more I ponder about it the more cruel it seems. Telling a woman in grief to just not be attached just doesn't seem compassionate in any way... Idk.
It is this sutra which moved me closer to Taoism. However, Taoism doesn't offer this kind of structured path which buddhism offers...
It might seem weird to you that one sutra caused me to feel like this after being in contact with buddhism for so long. And I cannot explain it myself either.
And the comments under my last post which reminded me of the option to just leave whatever doesn't feel right at the moment and come back to it later; while it makes sense; it's just the sutra is still stuck with me... I cannot believe to ever come to a point at which I would be able to deeply align with it.
It seems so silly. It's not like the sutra is extremely special or like it's advocating for something horribly brutal... But it just feels so cold. And left me feeling empty...
Any help or comments are appreciated.
May you all find peace.