u/Historical_City_4115

So I am homeschooled and i used to believe that i would never not like how i look or sound or how i feel. But now thats starting to change alot, i cant but help to look around my room plan out the stuff i could use to cut myself, ive also tried being different so my parents can notice that i might need mental help, as so not eating, not do hygiene,skipping lessons and staying upstairs in my room all day, but it hasnt worked once and they keep comparing me to my older sister, but im scared of what they will do if i do tell them, will they scream at me, brush it off, ignore it? i dont know. i used to be a good student with straight A's but now i mean i am still i have a few B's and C's though and i cant help to look at everything and realize that really anything could kill me if i ever need to and its scaring me alot, PS, i just turned 12 a few days ago