I feel so numb
I don’t know what to do I feel like I’m going insane. 16F, I don’t know if I’m depressed or what but I just feel so pessimistic about the future. I feel like I’ll never be happy again or ever have fun or be excited for anything. I feel like there isn’t anything that would make me stop feeling like this. I don’t know if i depressed right now because I’ve been depressed before and it felt more real than this, more intense than this, right now I really just feel numb and empty. like I feel like there’s nothing that could add anything to my life or make me feel something that wasn’t sad. I don’t think a relationship or a career or anything. thinking about the future makes me so sad because I can’t think of any scenario where I’m happy or I have enough that it makes me stop feeling this way. I just don’t know what to do i‘ve been spiraling the past couple hours and I actually hate it. I feel like I don’t wanna do anything. everything is just so numb. I know I’m young and I have my whole life ahead of me but I feel that my life is already too empty for anything to be able to fill it up enough. I really hope this is just some stupid episode because this really sucks. I don’t feel excited for anything. I feel like nothing could make this go away. I don’t find interest in doing anything, even things I used to be excited to do. I feel like there’s no point in doing anything and that even if I were to try to fix this, nothing would work or I wouldn’t know where to start.