u/Historical_Snow_4685

Hello, I have this one close friend — we’ve been friends for a year now, one of our issues is that she gets upset a lot when I can’t take the hint when somthing is upsetting her (I have told her is autistic and that direct is a better approach) but most of the time she still refuses to talk. These past days our “arguments” have led to her blocking me and saying she’s leaving me but she comes back, but today when we were talking about her leaving me she said she’s won’t yet. I know that day will come eventually, but how can I numb myself? I don’t want to get hurt or mourn our friendship loss, it’s an uncomfortable feeling and I get suicidal thoughts when she does block me (temporarily)