I need help where (if?) to start. Really conflicted
I'm MtF, have been on HRT for nearly 3 years now. I love a lot of how my body and face have changed, but it has felt insufficient. A lot of it has to do with my weight (it's very low) but also I just feel like my dysphoria hasn't gone down at all. If anything, it feels like both my dysphoria and euphoria moments have been amplified in strength, if that makes sense?
I recently have been diagnosed with C-PTSD, and my mental health in the past 6 or so months has been the worst it's ever been. I don't even have the necessary energy to feed myself or to get out of bed. It's just been real bad. Combined with the fact I might soon have to relocate to a highly socially conservative country which isn't safe for me, I'm really struggling with deciding what to do.
Has anybody had their mental clarity or mood improve after coming off feminizing hormones? How long did it take, if yes? I'm currently doing monotherapy on injections with progesterone, for context. How long would it take for T levels to go back to cisM ranges?