So I am pretty lucky
- 8 or so months from Separation, 26 years married. 55 years old
- I have a well paying job (at least for another couple of months)
- No alimony - she had a reasonable job and in NZ no requirement for either of us to pay.
- Adult son - who is still interacting with me but lives with his mum.
- Sold the house and came out with enough money/deposit for something reasonable - or i could blow it moving to Aus, or restarting my life somewhere else
- Currently living in a rented apartment in the CBD - cause after separating and living in the same house for 2 weeks it was driving me nuts, so got out as soon as i could.
- Got a separation agreement - she ended up paying me some dosh, and now wait for a couple of years to divorce (NZ law)
I have some friends but they have lives, and i do not want to be that guy. Am active in a couple of clubs - and they have been more than supportive.
Essentially i could have all the choices in the world to do what ever i want but here i am sitting here alone, with little to no interaction with anyone the whole weekend, feeling alone and sad, and with a sense of hopelessness that this is now my life for what ever time i have left.
I am at a loss on what to do next, some days i just want to curl up and let the world pass me by. I feel like i am getting more fragile by the day. Tried therapy but first session the counselor was late, got my name wrong and generally was just not a good fit but now not sure i want to try again.